O.K. So I'm pretty sure I can speak my mind here as, well it is my blog and I am reasonably certain I am the only one who looks at it anyways. Not that I have anything deeply profound (or profane for that matter) to say. Actually it seems as soon as I get a moment in front of the keyboard all my beautifully written, well thought out poignant things to say fly right out my head to who knows where and all I am left with is drivel.
I am not particularly happy right now, but then again I am not so sad or mad either, I just am...I don't know?
Definitely a little dizzy, been happening a lot lately which of course automatically leads me to assume brain tumor. I must go get my eyes checked if nothing else than to stop my own speculations. Also feeling a little old. I had coffee with some dear friends I used to work with. All younger than I and all seeming to have their life so much more "together". Also a bit insecure in so many ways, first the obvious-to those who know me by sight- I am not thin as I once was and I worry at times what this and the P.C.O.S. is going to cost me health wise and how the importance my husband at times puts on it over my actual being will cost me emotionally. There is also financial insecurity, my husband and I went through bankruptcy and came out still in debt, we still owe on his student loans, his unpaid taxes, someone very cleverly (and seemingly unpunnishdly) defrauded us around a thousand dollars we don't have via i-tunes and capital 1-yay-and now hubbies work truck has broken down. Then there is helpless. One of the poeples most near and dear to my heart is going though a hard time and I cannot be there - this hurts.
Well now I have finally come to tired, and that is what I feel most right now so with that I will bid adieu.
Good night.
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